Quote from John Steinbeck

“They say, and I expect truly, that if a man could see his whole life, he would never live it. He would kill himself instantly. Something like that happens on the week-end days when I do not work. I lift my eyes out of the details of the little day’s work and a panic crashes on me. The size and difficulty rise up and smack me. And yet it is necessary to look at the whole thing now and then. It’s like swimming with your head down or up. It cuts your speed to raise your head, but at least you know where you are going.”

—John Steinbeck (April 23rd, 1951)
Journal of a Novel: The East of Eden Letters (page 85)